Post by Deleted on Jun 29, 2013 21:58:33 GMT -5
I, I can't get these memories out of my mind,
And some kind of madness has started to evolve.
And some kind of madness has started to evolve.
Jackson got into his Porsche, slamming the door rather unceremoniously behind him. He started the car and backed down the driveway with a purring roar, one he would have taken the time to appreciate had he been in a better mood. His parents were at it again, so sickeningly sweet that he wanted to go barf. Honestly, how they could even pretend to be his parents was so beyond his comprehension that he just didn’t understand. Any time they tried to come close to anything parent-like, it was like a curtain went down over his features, clouding his expression with anger, betrayal, and more longing than any one person should carry. Who the fuck did they think they were, trying to be people that he could never have? He didn’t know what happened to his birth father, and his birth mother was dead, or something. Every time he looked at them, he felt betrayed.
They had waited, waited, to tell him, and though the rational part of his mind knew that if they’d tried any earlier on in his life, he wouldn’t have understood, but the fact that they hadn’t tried was what tore him a new one, every time. They’d lied to him, let him love them and call them Mom and Dad for the earliest years of his life. The years that were most important. And now all he could do when he remembered them was think of how happy he’d been, living a lie. He slammed his fist against the steering wheel, but had checked his strength at the last moment so his blow fell with human strength, not werewolf. Nonetheless the wheel shuddered and groaned its protest, and he fell silent, his expression grim and overall closed off, closed down. When he’d been with Lydia, he would tell her about all of it. Everything.
He knew she understood what he was going through, because she went through something similar with her parents. Except they fought all the time. But it was a similar concept that held betrayal. Now he couldn’t do that, and he didn’t realize how much he’d depended on her until he didn’t have her. Jackson didn’t realize where he was until he pulled into the parking lot of the local bowling alley, and he sighed heavily, remembering the double date with that idiot Scott, his hot girlfriend Allison, and Lydia. How he’d acted like a baby, but had secretly enjoyed the dirty jokes exchanged between Lydia and he. How she’d remained unruffled despite how much of a baby he was being. He left his car and headed inside, if anything just to reminisce than to play. He found himself sitting on a bench in front of the same lane they’d played at before, and before he knew it, he’d rented himself a pair of shoes and a ball, and started his game. It wasn’t as fun, playing on his own, but it was as close as he’d get to the real thing. He played silently, and determinedly, not noticing someone come up alongside him, though he should have.
NOTES :: None~
MUSIC :: Sugarcoat - Breaking Benjamin
WORDS :: 515
TAGS :: Open;
I, I tried so hard to let you go,
But some kind of madness is swallowing me whole, yeah
But some kind of madness is swallowing me whole, yeah
I have finally seen the light,
And I have finally realized
What you mean.
And I have finally realized
What you mean.